i am a firm believer in the fact that being a teenager sucks. i'm not sure why it is necessary for us to spend 5-7 years locked in a cycle of insecurity, self-doubt, and dissatisfaction. probably something about character building.people on the O.C. never seem to have to build character. if orange county can do it, why can't we? seriously! i don't see what rachel bilson has that we don't. besides perfection. and adam brody. well, not anymore, i guess, since they broke up like months ago. regardless, the point still stands.
so my mom has decided that it would be better for her (keyword: her) if she moved to thailand next month to live in a refugee camp and do some sort of healthcare thing. i'm seriously trying to be optimistic. like seriously trying. none of this half-wit-trying stuff. full-on, concentrated trying. and i'm still not optimistic. thus, it seems fair to say that despite my best efforts, i am officially declaring the suckiness of this situation. i think this could be fairly called a suckfest.
why, you might ask, is this a suckfest? it just is! no, i don't always get along with my mom, and yes, she drives me completely and totally off the wall almost every day, but underneath all that i happen to like her a whole lot and it's kind of nice to have my whole family around, since there are only three of us. but no. mom has decided that being a total egomaniac is exactly what the doctor ordered and it is what she is going to do.
the upside? there is no upside. i suppose that having only one parent (and a clueless one at that) around will make it easier to do what i want when i want, but since i don't usually do sneaky stuff, that just means that no one will care. i mean, they already don't care, but this means full-on 24/7 apathy. yikes. not looking forward to that.
hmph.
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that cruel cycle of pain and self-doubt is evidently someone's twisted joke on all of us that won't ever be understood...
and yet another cruel, unexplanable thing is the fact that sucky stuff always seems to happen to people who are wonderful and sweet, and who never deserved any of it.
that's you, neni. hang in there <3 love you always.
cute layout!
That's tough
once when I was in 8th grade my dad moved to Korea for three months while we stayed home and tried to find money to go over and be with him. When we finally flew over the twins hardly recognized him...whew that was weird.
I said goodbye to my daddy today again and now I think I'm officially cut off from my fam. Yikes.
I guess it's all part of that scary thing called growing up. haha didn't mean to write a novel ;) I love you lots.
btw love the new layout too!
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