after watching a couple of episodes from today's "one tree hill" marathon (a couple was all i could take. that show has too much drama--even for me), i find myself surprisingly grateful that i'm not actually one of those people. a little while ago, i figured that being one of the characters on one of those trashy soap opera-esque shows would be the pinnacle of existence--that it couldn't get much better. but really, if you think about it, it's seriously the opposite. as much as we complain about life being boring and ordinary and constant, there really isn't much else we could ask for. we cling to constancy because it's what keeps us grounded. we pray for protection against that which would uproot our lives and toss us into a hurricane--whether it be breaking up with whoever, losing someone, or getting stuck in an actual hurricane.i heard something a little bit sad today about someone i used to be really close with. she lost her way, and in her loss of self she lost everything that used to draw people to her, leaving her without her friends and with habits that won't bring her any new ones. i know there's absolutely nothing i can do, so i won't even try. i won't even think of expressing a desire to find a way to help. i'll just spend a little more time being thankful that even if i, in my selfish spoiled-ness, think my life is boring, at least it's incredibly, though torturously, cushy.
i've been thinking more seriously about law school. : dad would have a cow. literally.
i always hate these kinds of posts. blogger is not the place to go all intellectual. i always feel stupid. kind of defeats the purpose, huh?
school sucked. i walked into a silent, cold, harsh classroom and realized how badly i hope this semester passes fast. i know that everytime i say this i am reassured that it shouldn't matter, but it still tends to bother me that no one likes me at school. all of the sophomores. except madison. i know they're just sophomores, but with no one else around, they're just bodies and voices and people that don't approve of me and make me feel small and stupid and pointless. how dumb is that?? melissa always says they're the stupid ones, but i can't help but feel that it's the other way around.
henry, is college the same way? please say no. i don't know if i could take it...:P
6 comments:
oh..god.....Caroline!
please, please, don't tell me that "Her" indicates danbi.
I am worried now.
haha no! i promise, that's not who i was talking about. don't worry! sorry for the confusion.
lol chet.
well, the sophomores ARE stupid. c'mon, you're a senior! who cares what they think! they think they're all special because they're no longer freshies, but they're still dirt.
:P
college isn't the same. no one knows you in college, except for your friends really. unless you go to a really small college, you'll be relatively nonexistent to most people.
yea, Henry is totally right~!
Who cares about sophomores?! bunch of morons. In NMA, lower classmen have to be very respectful to their upper classmen. You need to show them that messing around with seniors is very very...DEADLY.
and thanks for clarifying the post, i am relieved.
chett, you need to come back and teach these cocky nma sophomores a lesson! they think they are all high and mighty just because a few of them dated seniors. it is seriously WRONG!
and caroline, you've made me curious. who is this "her"?
and don't worry...i feel the same way about high school and my semester hasn't started yet, which means it is no closer to being over with.
thank you for the many comments.
i have never felt so loved and appreciated. ;]
cya tomorrow!
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